you rock. like woah.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-09-06T12:14:00

2005-09-06T16:28:45Z

i love it here.
things are so wonderful.
i love my roomie.
i love the friends so far that i have made.
i enjoy my classes.
i love how i get to talk on the phone w/ my friends that dont go here.
i love being goofy.
and acting how i want to.
i love how peaceful it is here.
i love the noises of nature that i hear all of the time b/c we leave our windows open.
the breeze is just right.
doing my roomie art projects.
being on my own.
having a clean room.
doing what i want to do.
not having to wake up until 730 for my 8:00 class.
and getting to sleep in untill 9 for my 10:00.
i love happy messages people send me.
and the cute pictures i have on my walls.
road trips on the weekends.
sitting out on the court house steps.
lying in the middle of the road and watching the street lights change like in the notebook.
writing how i feel.
expressing myself.
washing my own clothes.
figuring out how to make our voice mail.
the excitement when my roomie comes back from being gone.
the great hugs the two of us have gotten to share.
how my friendships have gotten stronger since i'm not always there in person for them.
buying my own fruit.
being free.

but i do miss the cary kids.
and my family.
and my puppy.
but it isnt the same.

i have moved on, to th next chapter of my life. i can bring whatever i want with me. andi plan on bring as much crap as i can. not saying it is or will always be a piece of chocolate pie.(my fav that moms makes me.) but life does go on. and it will. i can get through it all. ive gotten this far. now i just got to keep on trucking. other people have gotten through this stage of life and i know that i can.

things are amazing. =)

sbcthatsme @ 2005-08-23T20:47:00

2005-08-24T00:55:10Z

so college life is wonderful. i'm loving just a/b every minute of it. things are just going great. i dont know if there is a place i would feel more at home. it just makes me really sad b/c i feel like i'm trying to call people to keep somewhat intouch. that is to the people that i feel i would for a while and i just feel like they dont care as much. maybe i'm just weird and really enjoying calling people to see how they are doing more so then most people. or i just havent been as busy so i can call people. but i dont know. oh well. i'm having a blast getting to know all these new people and such things. so exciting. if anyone would enjoy coming to visit the beautiful mountains that can surely come up to western and stay with me! i would loveee to have you. visitors excite me. =)

sbcthatsme @ 2005-08-18T19:42:00

2005-08-18T23:44:02Z

http://www.myspace.com/25801441

i got one of these things... incase anyone cared to know.

and i'm leaving tomorrow afternoon.
i'm real excited about it all.
yet i hate packing.
so i havent really done that yet.. i should probs jump on it.

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sbcthatsme @ 2005-08-10T17:26:00

2005-08-10T21:30:11Z

i'm leaving on the 19th.
move ins the 20th
and classes start on the 24th.

if you want to see me before i go. call me or leave a message. ive really been trying to call people. but things have been really stressful. so how bout trying to call me. or calling me back if i have gotten to call you. whichever. but yes. so since the phone does indeed work both ways. hit me up.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-07-24T10:42:00

2005-07-24T14:43:30Z

amazing.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-07-02T01:06:00

2005-07-02T05:08:08Z

things are good.

or getting better.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-06-27T16:49:00

2005-06-27T20:53:38Z

will i ever start going down hill again..

lord i feel you up

2005-06-27T15:50:58Z

i dont like people that are hypocritical. i dont like people that say if you dont believe in the same thing i do youre going to hell. i dont think that has a lot to do with whos going to heaven or hell. and for that matter it isnt up to us who is going to heaven or hell. it reallly drives me crazy.
and i dont like it would youre feeling used. makes you feel really shitty. and then you just get all confused and i'm not sure what is real. i like to be true with others. and i want people to be true with me. but its hard.
i'm going to get my eyebrow pierced. i think so atleast.
oh and i have a new aim sn: iwlkdownmemoryln

sbcthatsme @ 2005-06-17T18:37:00

2005-06-17T22:37:41Z

oops?...

sbcthatsme @ 2005-06-08T00:03:00

2005-06-08T04:04:20Z

things have been sooooo rediculous busy lately.
and ive had problems keeping in touch w/ people.

...hopefully ill get better at it.

i went running for the first time today in 5 weeks. thats silly.

and i loved the run. it was great.
and then i lefted.

yay

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-30T09:52:00

2005-05-30T13:54:22Z

hahahaha. this was just so funny i had to put it on somethine or another.

Auto response from runningimp318: why can't i breathe whenever i think about you
why can't i speak whenever i talk about you

kellen amanda: if you can't speak then you can't ever talk about whoever so that's irrelevant

kellen amanda: and if thinking gives you asthma...well....then, maybe you shouldn't over-exert yourself so much

well i dont know if yall found joy in that like i did. but i hope so.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-27T00:01:00

2005-05-27T04:10:57Z

so along w/ summer for me atleast comes
bad hygiene.
eating more
being real lazy
staying out late
doing stupid yet fun stuff
getting to really know who i enjoy spending time with
really knowing who my friends are
hopefully i will keep those friendships

a few highlights of tonight.-chill time with jen-finding gas for 1.89-driving in the jeep w/o the top-heat-windows up in the front to keep us a bit warmer-trying to find out where we were going in holly springs-going all the way to fukay-going to spit my gum out the window..then realizing that the window was def up..-meeting up w/ 15 other cars to go camping-them getting busted-changing plans-going on a closed road to get to a house-driving around and around with a trail of now 25 cars...(b/c that isnt noticable that something is going on..-going on anohter highway and not ever finding an exit-almost getting kill by a random lady on the side of the road-random black people dressed in all black biking on the highway-sweatshirts and jackets-trying to talk to someone through the closed window again forgetting that it was up..

..you most likely didnt understand any of that. and i mean those were only the highlights. but really. its just for me to truely understand it. so .

i'm really tired.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-19T14:41:00

2005-05-19T18:42:23Z

i'm done with high school. forever.

minus walking up and shaking hands with pops.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-15T20:49:00

2005-05-16T01:02:07Z

things are going.
high school is almost over.
life is like one huge roller coaster right now. and i'm not sure if i'm going up or down. kind of a weird feeling. all i know is i am going fast. and i hope it is in the right direction. i guess ill find out soon enough when i screw up.
i havent run in a/b 2 weeks. partly b/c i'm injured. stupid leg. and why did i keep running on it. now its hurts liek crap all of the time. but also i just have been so busy. and havent reallly felt like running. i love just not having ht pressure to run. and be good at it. and keep pushing myself. i feel like i dont have as many people to let down now. or atleast not as in as many ways. its hard to try to keep pleasing people and working harder and harder. but i like to please others. and well i mean i dont have the stress of pleasing them about that then, well what else do i have to do now. ...really i should just not try so hard to please others. but i still will.

i got to talk at senior night.
i get to speak at baccalaureate.
i get to speak at grad also.
...yet i dont really want to. at any of them for that matter.

i got $10,000 from SECU for college. thats good. and really exciting.

my sister had her baby on tuesday =) he is soooo cute! ill post pictures. aw so cute.

ive been with my family for the whole weekend.

..which means i think i might be going crazy. and i'm reallly tired.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-09T15:14:00

2005-05-09T19:15:55Z

i really hope it works out.

that would be really exciting.

it would be such a great way to end this year.

oh man.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-08T19:15:00

2005-05-08T23:19:50Z

fricking awesome weekend.
everything a/b it.
oh my goodness.
it was so great.
yes, awesome.

i got new sunglasses today. they are hot.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-05-04T21:16:00

2005-05-05T01:25:57Z

well thats the end.
no more track.
for that matter no more sports.
kinda feels weird.
ive never had it just be my last season.
its always been oh well i still have this. or that.
but not anymore.
its really the end.
i dont know how i like that.
i really am going to miss it.
i dont think i will miss all of it.
but i really will miss the team. the kids. even if half of the time i cant strand some of them.
i mean yeah. now i can be lazy. and eat whatever i want and not think oh this isnt good for me i need to run good. but i want to think like that. i want to have something to work towards.
i mean what else do i have to work towards like that. i dont think i'm running in college. which i mean i could. but i dont think i want to. but i really enjoy it.
now i will prob get fat. and be lazy. and be a waste of a person. but you know what. thats what i'm suppose to do. i'm an american. thats what americans do. (or i guess what they dont do....)ha. i dont like americans. thet are lazy fat people who think its all a/b money. and that if you arent the best you dont matter. they dont care who they hurt getting to the top. and they dont care about anyone but themselves.

well then. now that i have had a depressing yet thoughtful post...

its pretty much the end of my high school years.
i also not know what i think a/b that.
i mean i dont want to really be here any more.
but there are a few(bunch?) of poeple that i have gotten really close to that i really will miss. that next year i will be 7 hours away from them. and i mean i will go visit them. but i know they wont come to see me. which i mean makes me sad but i would rather know that then think they there is actully a small chance that they would actully come. and i just hope we can still be tight.

do i really want to go somewhere so far away?

..from everything i have known for 18 years.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-04-12T20:56:00

2005-04-13T01:05:25Z

i remeber everything i did last year today. it was the last day of spring break.

i went and hung out w/ kristen hammer, becca, stephen, jm, hannah, and nathen. we drive around for a while in the following one another trying to find the others who were looking for dry ice. it took so friggin long. and there was LOTs LOTs LOTS of rain POORING. and then we gave up and drive back to beccas house. we made cookies. adn then we were watching tv were we heard a/b a car accident that had happened a few blocks from where we just were. we didnt know at the time who was in it. we went on being ogoofy adn joking around. then i left to go to dinner at 530 w/ a friend who had just come into town, after getting home from sweet tomatoes mom came to me at the door. she told me we needed to talk. well the night went on and i found out that i knew one of the people in the car. kassel was there and got hit by a truck and was killed. i didnt really believe it. then some poeple called to find out what are really going on. i was so confused. then we all met at the track. and walked around. it was cold. and a bit rainy. but that didnt matter.

now. a year later today. without even thinking a/b what i did last year today. i made cookies. and i also went to the track late at night. i dont know why i think thats strange. but for some odd reason i do.
i dont know. but thats my thoughts for the time being. and i also got to hang out w/ some others that i had hung out w/ that day..

kassel. you rock. whos on first? i loved those red shorts. and all the funny things you did. you well always make me smile when i think about you.

i'm happy. thank you.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-04-04T18:08:00

2005-04-05T01:01:40Z

so to do more picture posting.....b/c thats fun.. i hope you enjoy these. haha. maybe they wont be burry like some of the last ones.. hehe oops sorry bout that one...

lauren came fomr rolesville to visit!        aw such a cutie. i mean pretty much a relly bad picture of me.. and not great of her. but you know. just playing around. and then i got kinda bored so i took pictures of her playing my max(that would be my dog if you werent sure..) aw. laurens due in august w/ a little girl.    how much fun does that look like! haha.    i love the faces. ... hey thats me.    lauren really like to play w/ dogs. i think that would be a good living for her..     well thats a goofy face.   ... ...          ..haha that was funny.     aw thats my cute doggie.. haha.

ok... well that was most likely boring for yall... but i had fun taking them atleast. hehe.

now on to more! well on saturday in cary attleast it started to rain REALLY FRIGGIN HARd. and then it proceeded to HAIL so...

   i took pictures. hehe.

oh and here's more pictures of sbc hanging out w/ friends...

   i like hoe jeannie cant keep her eyes opened while taking pictures.. we took like 10 of them. haha.   yay allie          and thats booker...    and this is lauren!   and another lauren!     yay fun times.. haha.

and there yo go another fun look at some of my friends while i'm bored.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-04-03T20:49:00

2005-04-04T01:14:22Z

just some random pictures i had been looking at.....

first of all there was the hang out with the girls at south point( my like 2nd time going.. ever) haha.
and tried on some fun hats and stuff.... ahhaah

and some more..

hhe. that was a fun one. ..i found a fun skirt. but i didnt want to pay a lot for it.. so i coudnt get it. its dani! ha...i was being weird.. oh coarse. yeah. my shoes. while i was waiting for others trying on clothes..

haha.. oh goodness. the the fun began that night! ..it's hannahhhh

haha. if you only knew.

. jon and ron and cory came to visit! haha. they shoulda stayed...

. hey it's danielle! a really bad picture of me and lauren..haha. haha. me and hannah again...

and over spring break while i was aroudn and about different places....

me and allie. haha she decided that she wanted to put make up on me and see waht i would look like.. waht do you think? hum.. anyways..so we're goofy. and lauren. heh. ha. and kim too
yay fun!

thats my new beach house! yay. and my mom and dog.. me and mom aw cute. haha

.... yay fun times.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-04-03T16:47:00

2005-04-03T20:48:34Z

mitch hedberg died on wednesday. he was a great comedian. i highly suggest if you have never heard him to should go out and buy his cd. it is the best anad funniest stuff in the world.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-03-30T21:15:00

2005-03-31T02:16:30Z

things are just sso crazy. confusing. and i have no idea what to do.

sbcthatsme @ 2005-03-26T16:50:00

2005-03-26T22:34:07Z

i have been living out of bags for the past 2 weeks.

i cant wait to be home. i mean new york was AWESOME. and so was the beach! and def had a blast in VA. but i miss not being at home. kinda.. i dont really know.

i feel like lately i've been putting up walls. like i'm scared of getting hurt by people. or hurting people. which isuppose really might be making things between be and others worse. i dont really know. i guess i'm confused. i havent been very talkative. and not really emotional in general. not that i havent been actully. its morel ike i've been putting up a front. of a happy girl. not really that i'm not happy. but i dont know. sometimes im not but i have people believe that i am. there was people that i had been getting really close to. but i havent really talked to them that much lately. which makes me sad. i dont know. who does know.

well i have to go. sleepless in seattle is on and diana and mk are waiting..

i shall write more later.....

sbcthatsme @ 2005-03-10T21:02:00

2005-03-11T02:04:01Z

no. no. i'im not dead. i know many thought something was wrong.
i have just been sooooo sooo busy. and tis just isnt on my list of things to do guys. i'm sorry. but thats life. sucks for all of you. you cant stalk me from my lj. hahah.

anyways. i have nothing at all to say to you. things have been crazy. but i dont really feel like talking a/b it all. so ha.

..oh and i saw this on a friends lj i thought it looked fun.

~sbcthatsme~

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sbcthatsme @ 2005-02-17T19:26:00

2005-02-18T00:28:24Z

i'm leaving for disney world!!!!!

... i know yall will miss me. i'll be back late night monday.

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