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[06 Sep 2005|12:14pm] |
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i love it here.
things are so wonderful.
i love my roomie.
i love the friends so far that i have made.
i enjoy my classes.
i love how i get to talk on the phone w/ my friends that dont go here.
i love being goofy.
and acting how i want to.
i love how peaceful it is here.
i love the noises of nature that i hear all of the time b/c we leave our windows open.
the breeze is just right.
doing my roomie art projects.
being on my own.
having a clean room.
doing what i want to do.
not having to wake up until 730 for my 8:00 class.
and getting to sleep in untill 9 for my 10:00.
i love happy messages people send me.
and the cute pictures i have on my walls.
road trips on the weekends.
sitting out on the court house steps.
lying in the middle of the road and watching the street lights change like in the notebook.
writing how i feel.
expressing myself.
washing my own clothes.
figuring out how to make our voice mail.
the excitement when my roomie comes back from being gone.
the great hugs the two of us have gotten to share.
how my friendships have gotten stronger since i'm not always there in person for them.
buying my own fruit.
being free.
but i do miss the cary kids.
and my family.
and my puppy.
but it isnt the same.
i have moved on, to th next chapter of my life. i can bring whatever i want with me. andi plan on bring as much crap as i can. not saying it is or will always be a piece of chocolate pie.(my fav that moms makes me.) but life does go on. and it will. i can get through it all. ive gotten this far. now i just got to keep on trucking. other people have gotten through this stage of life and i know that i can.
things are amazing. =)
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[23 Aug 2005|08:47pm] |
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so college life is wonderful. i'm loving just a/b every minute of it. things are just going great. i dont know if there is a place i would feel more at home. it just makes me really sad b/c i feel like i'm trying to call people to keep somewhat intouch. that is to the people that i feel i would for a while and i just feel like they dont care as much. maybe i'm just weird and really enjoying calling people to see how they are doing more so then most people. or i just havent been as busy so i can call people. but i dont know. oh well. i'm having a blast getting to know all these new people and such things. so exciting. if anyone would enjoy coming to visit the beautiful mountains that can surely come up to western and stay with me! i would loveee to have you. visitors excite me. =)
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[18 Aug 2005|07:42pm] |
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http://www.myspace.com/25801441
i got one of these things... incase anyone cared to know.
and i'm leaving tomorrow afternoon.
i'm real excited about it all.
yet i hate packing.
so i havent really done that yet.. i should probs jump on it.
<33
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[10 Aug 2005|05:26pm] |
i'm leaving on the 19th.
move ins the 20th
and classes start on the 24th.
if you want to see me before i go. call me or leave a message. ive really been trying to call people. but things have been really stressful. so how bout trying to call me. or calling me back if i have gotten to call you. whichever. but yes. so since the phone does indeed work both ways. hit me up.
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[24 Jul 2005|10:42am] |
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amazing.
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[02 Jul 2005|01:06am] |
things are good.
or getting better.
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[27 Jun 2005|04:49pm] |
( hum.. )
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[27 Jun 2005|11:49am] |
i dont like people that are hypocritical. i dont like people that say if you dont believe in the same thing i do youre going to hell. i dont think that has a lot to do with whos going to heaven or hell. and for that matter it isnt up to us who is going to heaven or hell. it reallly drives me crazy.
and i dont like it would youre feeling used. makes you feel really shitty. and then you just get all confused and i'm not sure what is real. i like to be true with others. and i want people to be true with me. but its hard.
i'm going to get my eyebrow pierced. i think so atleast.
oh and i have a new aim sn: iwlkdownmemoryln
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[17 Jun 2005|06:37pm] |
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oops?...
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[08 Jun 2005|12:03am] |
things have been sooooo rediculous busy lately.
and ive had problems keeping in touch w/ people.
...hopefully ill get better at it.
i went running for the first time today in 5 weeks. thats silly.
and i loved the run. it was great.
and then i lefted.
yay
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[30 May 2005|09:52am] |
hahahaha. this was just so funny i had to put it on somethine or another.
Auto response from runningimp318: why can't i breathe whenever i think about you
why can't i speak whenever i talk about you
kellen amanda: if you can't speak then you can't ever talk about whoever so that's irrelevant
kellen amanda: and if thinking gives you asthma...well....then, maybe you shouldn't over-exert yourself so much
well i dont know if yall found joy in that like i did. but i hope so.
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[27 May 2005|12:01am] |
so along w/ summer for me atleast comes
bad hygiene.
eating more
being real lazy
staying out late
doing stupid yet fun stuff
getting to really know who i enjoy spending time with
really knowing who my friends are
hopefully i will keep those friendships
a few highlights of tonight.-chill time with jen-finding gas for 1.89-driving in the jeep w/o the top-heat-windows up in the front to keep us a bit warmer-trying to find out where we were going in holly springs-going all the way to fukay-going to spit my gum out the window..then realizing that the window was def up..-meeting up w/ 15 other cars to go camping-them getting busted-changing plans-going on a closed road to get to a house-driving around and around with a trail of now 25 cars...(b/c that isnt noticable that something is going on..-going on anohter highway and not ever finding an exit-almost getting kill by a random lady on the side of the road-random black people dressed in all black biking on the highway-sweatshirts and jackets-trying to talk to someone through the closed window again forgetting that it was up..
..you most likely didnt understand any of that. and i mean those were only the highlights. but really. its just for me to truely understand it. so .
i'm really tired.
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[19 May 2005|02:41pm] |
i'm done with high school. forever.
minus walking up and shaking hands with pops.
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[15 May 2005|08:49pm] |
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things are going.
high school is almost over.
life is like one huge roller coaster right now. and i'm not sure if i'm going up or down. kind of a weird feeling. all i know is i am going fast. and i hope it is in the right direction. i guess ill find out soon enough when i screw up.
i havent run in a/b 2 weeks. partly b/c i'm injured. stupid leg. and why did i keep running on it. now its hurts liek crap all of the time. but also i just have been so busy. and havent reallly felt like running. i love just not having ht pressure to run. and be good at it. and keep pushing myself. i feel like i dont have as many people to let down now. or atleast not as in as many ways. its hard to try to keep pleasing people and working harder and harder. but i like to please others. and well i mean i dont have the stress of pleasing them about that then, well what else do i have to do now. ...really i should just not try so hard to please others. but i still will.
i got to talk at senior night.
i get to speak at baccalaureate.
i get to speak at grad also.
...yet i dont really want to. at any of them for that matter.
i got $10,000 from SECU for college. thats good. and really exciting.
my sister had her baby on tuesday =) he is soooo cute! ill post pictures. aw so cute.
ive been with my family for the whole weekend.
..which means i think i might be going crazy. and i'm reallly tired.
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[09 May 2005|03:14pm] |
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i really hope it works out.
that would be really exciting.
it would be such a great way to end this year.
oh man.
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[08 May 2005|07:15pm] |
fricking awesome weekend.
everything a/b it.
oh my goodness.
it was so great.
yes, awesome.
i got new sunglasses today. they are hot.
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[04 May 2005|09:16pm] |
well thats the end.
no more track.
for that matter no more sports.
kinda feels weird.
ive never had it just be my last season.
its always been oh well i still have this. or that.
but not anymore.
its really the end.
i dont know how i like that.
i really am going to miss it.
i dont think i will miss all of it.
but i really will miss the team. the kids. even if half of the time i cant strand some of them.
i mean yeah. now i can be lazy. and eat whatever i want and not think oh this isnt good for me i need to run good. but i want to think like that. i want to have something to work towards.
i mean what else do i have to work towards like that. i dont think i'm running in college. which i mean i could. but i dont think i want to. but i really enjoy it.
now i will prob get fat. and be lazy. and be a waste of a person. but you know what. thats what i'm suppose to do. i'm an american. thats what americans do. (or i guess what they dont do....)ha. i dont like americans. thet are lazy fat people who think its all a/b money. and that if you arent the best you dont matter. they dont care who they hurt getting to the top. and they dont care about anyone but themselves.
well then. now that i have had a depressing yet thoughtful post...
its pretty much the end of my high school years.
i also not know what i think a/b that.
i mean i dont want to really be here any more.
but there are a few(bunch?) of poeple that i have gotten really close to that i really will miss. that next year i will be 7 hours away from them. and i mean i will go visit them. but i know they wont come to see me. which i mean makes me sad but i would rather know that then think they there is actully a small chance that they would actully come. and i just hope we can still be tight.
do i really want to go somewhere so far away?
..from everything i have known for 18 years.
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[12 Apr 2005|08:56pm] |
i remeber everything i did last year today. it was the last day of spring break.
i went and hung out w/ kristen hammer, becca, stephen, jm, hannah, and nathen. we drive around for a while in the following one another trying to find the others who were looking for dry ice. it took so friggin long. and there was LOTs LOTs LOTS of rain POORING. and then we gave up and drive back to beccas house. we made cookies. adn then we were watching tv were we heard a/b a car accident that had happened a few blocks from where we just were. we didnt know at the time who was in it. we went on being ogoofy adn joking around. then i left to go to dinner at 530 w/ a friend who had just come into town, after getting home from sweet tomatoes mom came to me at the door. she told me we needed to talk. well the night went on and i found out that i knew one of the people in the car. kassel was there and got hit by a truck and was killed. i didnt really believe it. then some poeple called to find out what are really going on. i was so confused. then we all met at the track. and walked around. it was cold. and a bit rainy. but that didnt matter.
now. a year later today. without even thinking a/b what i did last year today. i made cookies. and i also went to the track late at night. i dont know why i think thats strange. but for some odd reason i do.
i dont know. but thats my thoughts for the time being. and i also got to hang out w/ some others that i had hung out w/ that day..
kassel. you rock. whos on first? i loved those red shorts. and all the funny things you did. you well always make me smile when i think about you.
i'm happy. thank you.
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[04 Apr 2005|06:08pm] |
so to do more picture posting.....b/c thats fun.. i hope you enjoy
these. haha. maybe they wont be burry like some of the last ones.. hehe
oops sorry bout that one...
( here we go! )
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[03 Apr 2005|08:49pm] |
( yay )
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